Day 27

Today I am thankful for pride.


               Pride is a total double edge sward for me. At times I am very prideful and stubborn. I know that everyone has those moments and I have learned to make them fewer and farther between. Pride in this manor can be pretty unhealthy and destructive. I feel good that I have learned this lesson at a young age. I feel as though I still have a lot to learn when it comes to pride. Sometimes I judge myself to much, take things to personally, and tell myself things that are mean. This is the most wicked and for me hardest to overcome. Fact is this is my prideful ego who is telling me these things.  Not the healing loving energy that is Me, the pure love and light of my being, my "soul" if you will. My soul loves its vehicle in this world and is pride filled not prideful.  I am so proud of so many aspects of my life.The ego is fighting back because the more light that fills me , the less room there is for the ego. So I consciously and acknowledging that I am proud of my husband and the life we are creating. I am proud of the love that I am able to spread with the world. I am proud of the amazing supportive family that I have. I am proud of the kind, fun friends that surround me, ect. But I feel that I need to learn to truly be proud of who I am. Oh man even typing it now makes me a little anxious and a million reasons why I shouldn't be proud come to mind. Lately I have really been holding on to the past and who I thought I was then. I haven't always been someone I have been proud of. I suppose that this has been a good inspiration for me to continue growing and change. I look at a lot of people in my life and think " That is the type of person I want to be". Tonight it was pointed out to me that I wouldn't have these people around me or have a great life that I was proud of if I wasn't that type of person. That I am attracted to that  energy and it is attracted to me because we are one and the same. Some thing to be be proud of! I am beautiful, strong, honest, funny, a loving wife, an adoring daughter and sister, a supportive friend and a cousin/niece/granddaughter who will always be there for her family. I woman who is deserving of all life offers, and who wants to share healing light with the wold. I am learning to be proud of those thing and remember that I am attractive to good things to come! 

Peace and Love to all, namaste.

Day 26

Today I am thankful for knowledge.


                  Knowledge comes in so many forms. In my personal opinion life is about gaining knowledge and learning from your experiences to raise the level of your own consciousness and hopefully in turn help raise the universal human consciousness. Without learning we can not grow. We must pay attention to learn. For me this is where it gets tricky, I have a great thirst for knowledge in a lot of ways, but I am very easily distracted. I have learned many techniques to consciously focus my mind on the present moment in order to get, well anything done at all. I take pride in learning new things, even little things. I get a great joy out of learning a new word in Spanish, something new about someone I know or a new recipe. I am a person who likes to know the truth, so I am a factual kinda girl, so naturally I am drawn to history and science. This is the Capricorn in me. I am also make a lot of my choices based on the facts mixed with how I feel about the facts. This is the Aquarius in me. Learning is something I hope I never stop doing and warmly invite you to start paying attention to all the "insignificant" things you learn everyday.

Day 25

Today I am thankful for healing.

           Healing is a universal need for all living things at one point or another. Sometimes we get it, and sometimes sadly we do not. I have been pretty ill for almost a week and I really hate depending on the Dr. or meds in general. I am trying to be very natural in my life. I tried a few homeopathic remedies but they just were not kickin my over abundance of mucus in the butt like I needed them to. So because I am prone to such sicknesses that are dangerous for adults to have I decided to go to the quack. Just kidding, I see Dr. Daniel Sewell who I must say has a great bedside manner and isn't one to just hand you pills. Although this time he did. I am on day two of the Zpack and I am already feeling better. I have 3 more days and I am expecting to be fully recovered by then.

           As much as the pills are helping, there is one homeopathic remedy that is really helping me and I am truly blessed to have. My husband. He has taken such great care of me, and continues to do so. He held my hair and cleaned me up when I vomited for an hour and half and has even worked  couple of my shifts this week. I am not sure how I would have survived without him.

           I have always been very drawn to heeling people. I really love healing people with energy and touch. For a long time I didn't think that I was doing that, or I thought I had to achieve something else or grow in a certain way in order to do this. Recently I have discovered that I am a healing person just by having that intention. I do want to grown in technique and within myself to be able to actually lay my hands on people and heal them. I have a little ways to go, but I am excited about fine tuning my abilities.