Catching up with the Tibbetts

Helllooooo!  Man it’s been a while not that I don’t adore all of you and want to share every little bit of everything that happens in my life, but life has been in high gear for the last month or so and it seem that I am nonstop on the go. This is good and bad. Good in the sense that I am constantly moving and shaking so all the yummy food and celebratory libations haven’t ALL gone straight to my ass. (Just most of them) Bad in the sense that I am constantly on the go and it’s been hardtop find some me time or even hubby time. Man we haven’t been on a date, just the two of us, in about a month.  Life really has been fun and had a lot of changes this last month! 
              To start we made it to one year! I hear this is quite the feat but we feel like it went by so fast with little hiccups in the big picture sense. We really have gotten a lot closer and stronger. We have had some challenges that not only have hurt a little but have helped to build our bond and solidify that we made the right choice with the right person. When it comes down to it that is what marriage is about. Never giving up on the love you felt the day you committed your life to that person. We had a fabulous trip. We went and stayed in Venice with our family friend Sonia. From there we made the trek over to Disneyland, but first we picked up Kelly from the Long beach airport, if you can even call it an airport. Sorry LBA. We spent two magical days and nights in Anaheim at Disneyland. We rode some ride (pirates is my favorite, F splash mountain) When it was time to leave the most magical place on earth we hit the open road for a 4 hour car ride to one of the sleaziest places on earth…VEGAS BABY! OH MY was that fun, we ate great food and drank way too much. I even danced on the bar at Coyote Ugly! We stayed at the New York New York. By this time we were ready for our own bed and some routine. So we hopped back in the car drove 8 hours through the Nevada dessert AKA Deliverance and through the back side of Reno through Tahoe to home sweet home.  

 

Then it was back on the pony gearing up for the fabulous events to lie ahead. Next was my “little” brother’s graduation from high school. *tear I can’t believe He is 18 and graduated. It was so cool to be there and watch him get his diploma and then that weekend Adam and I went to his house for a little BBQ and presents to celebrate the accomplishments of the last 4 years! I am so proud and excited to see where is takes his life now! 

 

He is so smart, kind hearted, tenacious, and focused. I know He can do anything He puts his mind to. A week after Spencer graduated My Seester turned 30!! What a fabulous 30 she is. Dad, Mom, Alan, Steph, Jodi, Jason, Adam, and I all went to dinner at The Kitchen. It is a wonderful high class place that serves amazingly delicious food with exquisite wine and what a show they put on. It is a little pricey but so worth saving your pennies! Then we all headed back to her house where parents went to be and Kids hit the town. We walked to Ink, The Blue Que, and Pine Cove. I wore the complete wrong shoes and ended up with blisters but I was a wee bit intoxicated so I didn’t care at the time. ;-)

 All of this excitement was preparing us for the big moment it all was leading up to…Audrie Brown became Audrie Kerr. It was so much fun, but wait I am getting ahead of myself. Of course there was lots of prep and planning that went on but then the Saturday before the big day was time to relax and celebrate the shedding of the past and the start of a new future. Sara (the maid of honor) Audrie, Molly and I all drove up to South Lake Tahoe for a night on the strip. It was so fun we got all dolled up had dinner at the Hard Rock Café. As full as we were we headed over to the Cabo Wabo bar where they were serving pitchers of Waboritas to any bridal party of 5 or more so we hooked up with another bridal party we saw in line who only had 3 ladies and we got 2 pitchers, how I am not sure. Guess we were so dang cute we looked like we had more girls than we did. OH well no one was complaining. So we hung out and talked with them for a while and danced. They had a band playing that was really good and we knew almost all the song! By then it was 12:30 our dogs were barking and we had some major drunk munchies! So we walked back to our hotel (again in heels, my poor feet hate me) where we snuggled in to eat chips and bean dip and watch Best in Show. Great movie. Great night and company.

Then it was prep prep  prep! Friday the village spent all day at the hall decorating and transforming it from a little farm hall to a beautiful country ball room. It was elegantly simple and classy. The girls spent the night at Audrie’s house and Chris and some of the boys spent the night at his brother’s house. In the morning Audrie and I cleaned wonders pasture, loaded up the car and drove to the hotel they were staying at that night to get ready! I did hair and make up for us while we sipped champagne. We loaded up again to get to Sara’s parents house for pictures and putting on the dress. She looked absolutely stunning. I think Chris was blown away by her beauty, grace and that dress!!! The wedding was pretty nontraditional, as Chris walked her down the aisle, they did what’s called a first look before the ceremony and went and did some of the reception, then took more pictures later on about half way through. Mostly because it was ridiculously hot, I think it actually got to 109!! From there it was a dance party till the end. The bride and groom took off into the night, leaving for the Mendocino coast the next day! Meanwhile the village was back for round 2…clean up! Great weekend, great wedding, gorgeous bride! 

 

Now it’s just been back to the grind stone workin workin workin. Been offered a little extra position at the restaurant as sommelier! So been wine tasting and crunching numbers to find our next local winery! 

Day 30

Today I am thankful for life...

"Leave all your love and your longing behind. You cant carry it with you if you want to survive." - Florence and the Machine

       I have thought long and hard about this particular entry. For many reasons. I know being open and possibly using this as an out let is the original intention, but neither it seems have been very easy for me lately. I feel that the lesson I am supposed to be learning right now, or at least one of them, has become very obvious. Let it go, let it be, let it ride. My dad's advice about most things that upset me, one of my most favorite songs, and a motto of a good friend I once knew that I am feeling inspire me more than ever. These things do not come very natural to me at all. I drive my self crazy at time with over analyzing every moment of life and what their outcomes might be. Instead of truly basking in the glory of every moment good or bad. They all are teaching me something.And i may not get as many as I think.

     "The fact that life depends on death is hard for us to accept." Unknown 

     Most of you know that my gramie Trish is sick, very sick in fact, with cancer. I really am pretty close with all my gramies. There has always been a special thing about my grandmas that I could never put my finger on, but always leaves me in awe. Perhaps its the knowledgeable perspective, the great cooking skills, or the grace of an era and the sweet loving moments. Grandpas are awesome, but for a little girl grandmas are really special. All of my gramies have been very good to me. My gramie Tris has always seemed to just love me, and encourage who I am. She is like my other gramies in the way that they don't seem to be "old". They are all very sane, strong, opinionated, insightful, capable women. Gramie Trish only gave up her real estate clients a month ago! I am feeling that not only do I need to reconnect more with my gramies, but I have become more appreciative of what all of them have brought to my life and also who all of them are as women. I am so thankful and do not think its a coincidence that you all are my gramies and that I am the way I am after knowing all of you. Thank you for being who you all are and being there for me. Helping raise me in to the the sweet, loving, intelligent woman I am. It led me to happiness and the love of a man who can not only handle me but loves me completely. I have moments of complete sadness and engulfing grief not only for me but for my Mom (Deb) and my entire family. Then I think about how my gram must feel and I can't even imagine, or Mr. B, Her hubby. I understand I guess that these things happen to everyone but it's so surreal now.

       Life is full circle, as hard as that is for us to see sometimes. Life in my opinion is all about looking for the lessons. I am here to learn. The more I learn and grow the closer I feel to existing and to my relationships with people. I am having my mind and soul opened up so much in this moment in life that I am over whelmed with emotions and semi understanding, or at least semi rationalizing why I feel like I do.


"Keep your head above your heart and your eyes wide open. So this world can't find a way to leave you cold. And no your not the only ship out on the ocean. Save your strength for things that you can change, forgive the ones that you can't, you gotta let it go. Like a sweet sunset in Georgia let it go. Like the fear that grab a hold ya let it go." - Zac Brown Band

Day 27

Today I am thankful for pride.


               Pride is a total double edge sward for me. At times I am very prideful and stubborn. I know that everyone has those moments and I have learned to make them fewer and farther between. Pride in this manor can be pretty unhealthy and destructive. I feel good that I have learned this lesson at a young age. I feel as though I still have a lot to learn when it comes to pride. Sometimes I judge myself to much, take things to personally, and tell myself things that are mean. This is the most wicked and for me hardest to overcome. Fact is this is my prideful ego who is telling me these things.  Not the healing loving energy that is Me, the pure love and light of my being, my "soul" if you will. My soul loves its vehicle in this world and is pride filled not prideful.  I am so proud of so many aspects of my life.The ego is fighting back because the more light that fills me , the less room there is for the ego. So I consciously and acknowledging that I am proud of my husband and the life we are creating. I am proud of the love that I am able to spread with the world. I am proud of the amazing supportive family that I have. I am proud of the kind, fun friends that surround me, ect. But I feel that I need to learn to truly be proud of who I am. Oh man even typing it now makes me a little anxious and a million reasons why I shouldn't be proud come to mind. Lately I have really been holding on to the past and who I thought I was then. I haven't always been someone I have been proud of. I suppose that this has been a good inspiration for me to continue growing and change. I look at a lot of people in my life and think " That is the type of person I want to be". Tonight it was pointed out to me that I wouldn't have these people around me or have a great life that I was proud of if I wasn't that type of person. That I am attracted to that  energy and it is attracted to me because we are one and the same. Some thing to be be proud of! I am beautiful, strong, honest, funny, a loving wife, an adoring daughter and sister, a supportive friend and a cousin/niece/granddaughter who will always be there for her family. I woman who is deserving of all life offers, and who wants to share healing light with the wold. I am learning to be proud of those thing and remember that I am attractive to good things to come! 

Peace and Love to all, namaste.

day 19

Day 18: Today I am thankful for being a woman.

Yesterday my mother in law Mary got married. I was one of the bridesmaids. The three older boys walked her down the aisle and Daniel was the officiant. If there is one thing weddings do its bring out the little girl in every woman. On that day I felt more beautiful and more love than I ever had  before in my life. I hope that Mary had the same great experience.

We spent most of the day Friday in the hall decorating! We folded napkins, set up tables, hung lights, and turned the hall into a glittering winter wonderland. It was beautiful and and a lot of fun. Then Mary, Bev and I went to get our nails done and shop or under the dress... Ooo la la! Back to the hall for practice and dinner. When Mary saw the hall she was awe struck, it was better than she imagined. The next day we all woke up early and Mary's day started with getting her and Bev's hair done. She had half up cascading curls with little sparkles in it. Next we went out to her house to start the make up process, last minute hair touch ups and the big moment of putting the dress on. Which was amazing and fit her perfectly. Then show time!  There wasn't a dry eye there. She and Tom even could hardly make it threw their vows. Such a sweet ceremony, finishing with a great party!


Being a bride is one of the most feminine moments of a woman's life, but there is more to being a woman than primping and decorating. There is passion, strength, softness, courage, and fierce protectiveness. A loving heart and a creative mind. There is a complete beauty in a woman no words could describe. I mean we frickin grow and carry a human in our bodies or almost a year, come on. I know I am not alone here.

I would say I have grown way more accepting and loving of my feminine qualities and just the fact that I am a woman who is beautiful in all aspects. I must admit being with Adam and learning to believe and trust that he loves me and thinks I am the greats thing since sliced bread has really helped me to see it. And for me one of the things that makes me feel the most feminine is when my man cant keep his hands to himself or I catch him checkin me out. I love being a woman and I can't wait to establish exactly what that means to me.