Catching up with the Tibbetts

Helllooooo!  Man it’s been a while not that I don’t adore all of you and want to share every little bit of everything that happens in my life, but life has been in high gear for the last month or so and it seem that I am nonstop on the go. This is good and bad. Good in the sense that I am constantly moving and shaking so all the yummy food and celebratory libations haven’t ALL gone straight to my ass. (Just most of them) Bad in the sense that I am constantly on the go and it’s been hardtop find some me time or even hubby time. Man we haven’t been on a date, just the two of us, in about a month.  Life really has been fun and had a lot of changes this last month! 
              To start we made it to one year! I hear this is quite the feat but we feel like it went by so fast with little hiccups in the big picture sense. We really have gotten a lot closer and stronger. We have had some challenges that not only have hurt a little but have helped to build our bond and solidify that we made the right choice with the right person. When it comes down to it that is what marriage is about. Never giving up on the love you felt the day you committed your life to that person. We had a fabulous trip. We went and stayed in Venice with our family friend Sonia. From there we made the trek over to Disneyland, but first we picked up Kelly from the Long beach airport, if you can even call it an airport. Sorry LBA. We spent two magical days and nights in Anaheim at Disneyland. We rode some ride (pirates is my favorite, F splash mountain) When it was time to leave the most magical place on earth we hit the open road for a 4 hour car ride to one of the sleaziest places on earth…VEGAS BABY! OH MY was that fun, we ate great food and drank way too much. I even danced on the bar at Coyote Ugly! We stayed at the New York New York. By this time we were ready for our own bed and some routine. So we hopped back in the car drove 8 hours through the Nevada dessert AKA Deliverance and through the back side of Reno through Tahoe to home sweet home.  

 

Then it was back on the pony gearing up for the fabulous events to lie ahead. Next was my “little” brother’s graduation from high school. *tear I can’t believe He is 18 and graduated. It was so cool to be there and watch him get his diploma and then that weekend Adam and I went to his house for a little BBQ and presents to celebrate the accomplishments of the last 4 years! I am so proud and excited to see where is takes his life now! 

 

He is so smart, kind hearted, tenacious, and focused. I know He can do anything He puts his mind to. A week after Spencer graduated My Seester turned 30!! What a fabulous 30 she is. Dad, Mom, Alan, Steph, Jodi, Jason, Adam, and I all went to dinner at The Kitchen. It is a wonderful high class place that serves amazingly delicious food with exquisite wine and what a show they put on. It is a little pricey but so worth saving your pennies! Then we all headed back to her house where parents went to be and Kids hit the town. We walked to Ink, The Blue Que, and Pine Cove. I wore the complete wrong shoes and ended up with blisters but I was a wee bit intoxicated so I didn’t care at the time. ;-)

 All of this excitement was preparing us for the big moment it all was leading up to…Audrie Brown became Audrie Kerr. It was so much fun, but wait I am getting ahead of myself. Of course there was lots of prep and planning that went on but then the Saturday before the big day was time to relax and celebrate the shedding of the past and the start of a new future. Sara (the maid of honor) Audrie, Molly and I all drove up to South Lake Tahoe for a night on the strip. It was so fun we got all dolled up had dinner at the Hard Rock Café. As full as we were we headed over to the Cabo Wabo bar where they were serving pitchers of Waboritas to any bridal party of 5 or more so we hooked up with another bridal party we saw in line who only had 3 ladies and we got 2 pitchers, how I am not sure. Guess we were so dang cute we looked like we had more girls than we did. OH well no one was complaining. So we hung out and talked with them for a while and danced. They had a band playing that was really good and we knew almost all the song! By then it was 12:30 our dogs were barking and we had some major drunk munchies! So we walked back to our hotel (again in heels, my poor feet hate me) where we snuggled in to eat chips and bean dip and watch Best in Show. Great movie. Great night and company.

Then it was prep prep  prep! Friday the village spent all day at the hall decorating and transforming it from a little farm hall to a beautiful country ball room. It was elegantly simple and classy. The girls spent the night at Audrie’s house and Chris and some of the boys spent the night at his brother’s house. In the morning Audrie and I cleaned wonders pasture, loaded up the car and drove to the hotel they were staying at that night to get ready! I did hair and make up for us while we sipped champagne. We loaded up again to get to Sara’s parents house for pictures and putting on the dress. She looked absolutely stunning. I think Chris was blown away by her beauty, grace and that dress!!! The wedding was pretty nontraditional, as Chris walked her down the aisle, they did what’s called a first look before the ceremony and went and did some of the reception, then took more pictures later on about half way through. Mostly because it was ridiculously hot, I think it actually got to 109!! From there it was a dance party till the end. The bride and groom took off into the night, leaving for the Mendocino coast the next day! Meanwhile the village was back for round 2…clean up! Great weekend, great wedding, gorgeous bride! 

 

Now it’s just been back to the grind stone workin workin workin. Been offered a little extra position at the restaurant as sommelier! So been wine tasting and crunching numbers to find our next local winery! 

Day 30

Today I am thankful for life...

"Leave all your love and your longing behind. You cant carry it with you if you want to survive." - Florence and the Machine

       I have thought long and hard about this particular entry. For many reasons. I know being open and possibly using this as an out let is the original intention, but neither it seems have been very easy for me lately. I feel that the lesson I am supposed to be learning right now, or at least one of them, has become very obvious. Let it go, let it be, let it ride. My dad's advice about most things that upset me, one of my most favorite songs, and a motto of a good friend I once knew that I am feeling inspire me more than ever. These things do not come very natural to me at all. I drive my self crazy at time with over analyzing every moment of life and what their outcomes might be. Instead of truly basking in the glory of every moment good or bad. They all are teaching me something.And i may not get as many as I think.

     "The fact that life depends on death is hard for us to accept." Unknown 

     Most of you know that my gramie Trish is sick, very sick in fact, with cancer. I really am pretty close with all my gramies. There has always been a special thing about my grandmas that I could never put my finger on, but always leaves me in awe. Perhaps its the knowledgeable perspective, the great cooking skills, or the grace of an era and the sweet loving moments. Grandpas are awesome, but for a little girl grandmas are really special. All of my gramies have been very good to me. My gramie Tris has always seemed to just love me, and encourage who I am. She is like my other gramies in the way that they don't seem to be "old". They are all very sane, strong, opinionated, insightful, capable women. Gramie Trish only gave up her real estate clients a month ago! I am feeling that not only do I need to reconnect more with my gramies, but I have become more appreciative of what all of them have brought to my life and also who all of them are as women. I am so thankful and do not think its a coincidence that you all are my gramies and that I am the way I am after knowing all of you. Thank you for being who you all are and being there for me. Helping raise me in to the the sweet, loving, intelligent woman I am. It led me to happiness and the love of a man who can not only handle me but loves me completely. I have moments of complete sadness and engulfing grief not only for me but for my Mom (Deb) and my entire family. Then I think about how my gram must feel and I can't even imagine, or Mr. B, Her hubby. I understand I guess that these things happen to everyone but it's so surreal now.

       Life is full circle, as hard as that is for us to see sometimes. Life in my opinion is all about looking for the lessons. I am here to learn. The more I learn and grow the closer I feel to existing and to my relationships with people. I am having my mind and soul opened up so much in this moment in life that I am over whelmed with emotions and semi understanding, or at least semi rationalizing why I feel like I do.


"Keep your head above your heart and your eyes wide open. So this world can't find a way to leave you cold. And no your not the only ship out on the ocean. Save your strength for things that you can change, forgive the ones that you can't, you gotta let it go. Like a sweet sunset in Georgia let it go. Like the fear that grab a hold ya let it go." - Zac Brown Band

Day 29

Today I am thankful for love.


        

love

   [luhv] Show IPA noun, verb, loved, lov·ing.

noun

1.

a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.

2.

a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.

3.

sexual passion or desire.

4.

a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.

5.

(used in direct address as a term of endearment, affection, or the like): Would you like to see a movie, love?



1. Of course the one person who I have a profoundly tender, very passionate affection for is Adam. Coming up on our one year and I am realizing how much time we have, and how fast it will go by. Trying to learn how to just be in this love. Cherrish ever moment I can, with him.

2. You all know who you are, chances are the only people who actually read this are the people who fit in this "category".

3. I don't kiss and tell, but I am far from board.

4. D All of the above

We use love so loosely these days. Well some people do. I have been known.... I love this (song, color, dress, movie, ect.). I have blogged about my love for music before. For me music can be and has been some of the most moving experiences of life. I am not talking about the words of the music, more the actual feeling or vibration musical notes arranged in certain patterns feels like.  I am sure it is no surprise that some of my favorite songs are about spreading love. The intention and feeling behind the music is peaceful, calm, and passionate. Most of this is the music I listen to when I meditate give facials/massages or meditate. I have a Buddha next to my side of the bed to help remember to love all the world. Life is short and the vibration of love is so easy to share. Love is fulfilling for all around it and is intoxicating. I have never shared love with anyone person like I do with Adam. He is so open, giving love so freely. I am excited to someday share the love of a soul we get the privilege of bringing in to this world.

Day 28

Today I am thankful for something old.

     We are back to our house now. It was nice to have a break from our house, but its so nice to be back in our space. Back in our bed and our kitchen and with our family. I am  getting all unpacked and settled in. Adam has been out of town, but as soon as he gets home it will really feel like our space again. I just love the way our house feels, its so open and inviting. Its a space where I am free to be myself and and this place has really helped me find myself. This place is grounding and settles my soul. It is where Adam and I met for the first time and where he proposed to me. its the place I want to foster my kids growth, and teach them about family. It has a lot of history ( it's over 100 years old) and a lot has happened to this family in this house, and they always come out with a tighter bond in the end. It is great property and has so much character. So much life, love and humor.  I love this "old" place.

Day 27

Today I am thankful for pride.


               Pride is a total double edge sward for me. At times I am very prideful and stubborn. I know that everyone has those moments and I have learned to make them fewer and farther between. Pride in this manor can be pretty unhealthy and destructive. I feel good that I have learned this lesson at a young age. I feel as though I still have a lot to learn when it comes to pride. Sometimes I judge myself to much, take things to personally, and tell myself things that are mean. This is the most wicked and for me hardest to overcome. Fact is this is my prideful ego who is telling me these things.  Not the healing loving energy that is Me, the pure love and light of my being, my "soul" if you will. My soul loves its vehicle in this world and is pride filled not prideful.  I am so proud of so many aspects of my life.The ego is fighting back because the more light that fills me , the less room there is for the ego. So I consciously and acknowledging that I am proud of my husband and the life we are creating. I am proud of the love that I am able to spread with the world. I am proud of the amazing supportive family that I have. I am proud of the kind, fun friends that surround me, ect. But I feel that I need to learn to truly be proud of who I am. Oh man even typing it now makes me a little anxious and a million reasons why I shouldn't be proud come to mind. Lately I have really been holding on to the past and who I thought I was then. I haven't always been someone I have been proud of. I suppose that this has been a good inspiration for me to continue growing and change. I look at a lot of people in my life and think " That is the type of person I want to be". Tonight it was pointed out to me that I wouldn't have these people around me or have a great life that I was proud of if I wasn't that type of person. That I am attracted to that  energy and it is attracted to me because we are one and the same. Some thing to be be proud of! I am beautiful, strong, honest, funny, a loving wife, an adoring daughter and sister, a supportive friend and a cousin/niece/granddaughter who will always be there for her family. I woman who is deserving of all life offers, and who wants to share healing light with the wold. I am learning to be proud of those thing and remember that I am attractive to good things to come! 

Peace and Love to all, namaste.

Day 26

Today I am thankful for knowledge.


                  Knowledge comes in so many forms. In my personal opinion life is about gaining knowledge and learning from your experiences to raise the level of your own consciousness and hopefully in turn help raise the universal human consciousness. Without learning we can not grow. We must pay attention to learn. For me this is where it gets tricky, I have a great thirst for knowledge in a lot of ways, but I am very easily distracted. I have learned many techniques to consciously focus my mind on the present moment in order to get, well anything done at all. I take pride in learning new things, even little things. I get a great joy out of learning a new word in Spanish, something new about someone I know or a new recipe. I am a person who likes to know the truth, so I am a factual kinda girl, so naturally I am drawn to history and science. This is the Capricorn in me. I am also make a lot of my choices based on the facts mixed with how I feel about the facts. This is the Aquarius in me. Learning is something I hope I never stop doing and warmly invite you to start paying attention to all the "insignificant" things you learn everyday.

Day 25

Today I am thankful for healing.

           Healing is a universal need for all living things at one point or another. Sometimes we get it, and sometimes sadly we do not. I have been pretty ill for almost a week and I really hate depending on the Dr. or meds in general. I am trying to be very natural in my life. I tried a few homeopathic remedies but they just were not kickin my over abundance of mucus in the butt like I needed them to. So because I am prone to such sicknesses that are dangerous for adults to have I decided to go to the quack. Just kidding, I see Dr. Daniel Sewell who I must say has a great bedside manner and isn't one to just hand you pills. Although this time he did. I am on day two of the Zpack and I am already feeling better. I have 3 more days and I am expecting to be fully recovered by then.

           As much as the pills are helping, there is one homeopathic remedy that is really helping me and I am truly blessed to have. My husband. He has taken such great care of me, and continues to do so. He held my hair and cleaned me up when I vomited for an hour and half and has even worked  couple of my shifts this week. I am not sure how I would have survived without him.

           I have always been very drawn to heeling people. I really love healing people with energy and touch. For a long time I didn't think that I was doing that, or I thought I had to achieve something else or grow in a certain way in order to do this. Recently I have discovered that I am a healing person just by having that intention. I do want to grown in technique and within myself to be able to actually lay my hands on people and heal them. I have a little ways to go, but I am excited about fine tuning my abilities.

Day 24

Today I am thankful for being a wife.



           





                    Not only am I thankful for being a wife, I am thankful to be Adam's wife. I didn't realize that things would actually be different. I mean nothing major as we lived together before hand so we knew each other quite well. Small things are different, mostly my mind set I guess. To think that I am somebody's wife is a bit strange, but very cool. I really think about so much more than just me and what I need or want. I have a great partner to help me make life's hard choices. A hysterical man to share my laughter and good times with. A creative, kind man who not only shares my dreams but enhances them and reaches for them with me. A sweet sexy man who loves me so thoroughly both emotionally and physically. A selfless thoughtful husband who makes it so easy for me to be the best wife I can because he is so good to me all I want to to be that good if not better to him. I am so lucky to have this amazing person to create and live out this exciting life with. I have never felt so secure, or loved or beautiful in my life, it only gonna get better with time. I am thankful that I am over the part of my life that is sifting through the jerks and drama for the prince charming and fairytale. Now on to the next chapter!

Day 23

Today I am thankful or trying something new.

            I have been doing a lot of this lately. The newest thing I have done ( literally like 20 minutes ago, well actually more than that by the time I post this) is start walking the dogs. Ha more like walking myself! I have heard that is takes a month ish to make something a habit. We are house sitting for almost 2 months, meaning we walk the dogs (ourselves) everyday. This is great! The best part is we still have "Bucky" to walk when we get home! Sure it will be more difficult physically, the road behind our house has a pretty good hill. Also harder road wise as we have no side walks but that's what the next couple of months are for...training! 

             I also have tried a couple of new recipes that were good but need perfecting so I am not ready to share. But I am willing to share a new adventure The hubs and I had with Ethan, Mel and one of their friends who doubles as the O.T.P. marketing guy (I believe) Russ. We went to Mt. Vernon Winery to taste some really good wine. We tried 7or 8 of their 16 varieties. My favorite as usual is the Old Vine Zinfandel. We are looking for some great placer county wines and I think we are going to make a "thing" of this. There are 16+ wineries on the placer county wine trail! I KNOW RIGHT!  I was shocked. Apparently we have great soil for it, I had NO idea!! I digress, so we are thinking that we are gonna try for every Friday we hit up a winery on the trail! I am so excited. Especially because this Friday is my birthday! Whoot Whoot! We are not sure where we are going this week yet but stay tuned for reviews! Or if you have any favorite Placer county winery please share!

Peace and love to all. Namaste.

Day 22

Day 21 Today I am thankful for fresh starts


        I am really not a resolution kinda gal. I believe that you should always be contentious of what your goals are, how you are going to achieve them and where you are at in that process. Making your life experience better is not some thing I want to focus on only once a year. I do however appreciate that the new year does bring with it a scene of starting fresh, and a refocusing of energy. I am not going to focus on the bad habits I want to stop doing or the food I am not going to allow myself to eat because these things are really not realistic for me. ( kudos to those of you have the will power and focus to change theses things.) Instead for me it is better to focus on the attractive energy field of setting positive goals. This is much easier way for me to stick with it. So 2012 holds in store for me: 

Loving myself

Spreading love and light throughout my world
 

Yoga to help my body be stronger, leaner, and more comfortable in general
 

More veggies and foods that give me energy when I indulge in them
 

Mediation everyday! I am feeling a strong pull to perfect the skill of stillness
 

Growing my business and education as to sever my clients better and make more money

Slowing down, living in the moment, and making time for the moments of fun and joy with people I love

I hope that this year brings everyone blessings and happiness. Let us remember that the energy that we put out to the universe is what we get back, so put out some positivity. Peace and Love to all.

Namaste